I once sat on miserys couch, broken and soaked in hurt thinking a life lived should be a life worth remembering. And how sadness was such a powerful thing. My days were filled with shattered dreams and broken hope, the little hope I did carry, was empty, so all I had was the damaged piece of string that tied me to life, which I held onto day and night. Wondering if something worth waiting for, would be worth my acceptance. But nothing ever was. I remember holding my breath long enough to deprive my brain of oxygen forcing my mind to sink into the abyss of darkness. It was tough, living life expecting nothing but the worse, but never being prepared for it. Or growing up without a hand to hold, or without Love to depend on. Who deserves that?
I sometimes sat, and wandered off into a world of what if's. But without heavy hesitation, quickly snapped back to reality, because what I didn't or couldn't have, hurt. And pain is something that never dies. But I heard you get over it, somehow.
Have you ever had something so profound happen to you that it changes your life in an instant?....I have. June 19th. For some unknown reasons, after initiation of conversation, somewhere deep inside myself, I felt inclined towards you. I, or my soul, immediately became infatuated with your mind and words. Gradually, that infatuation gracfully converted to fondness, then to intense care, to passion, after resting at Love. But the Love grew, day and night and night and day..without reason, but I didn't need reason, at that moment, my heart convinced my otherwise pessimistic mind that, you were all I needed.
You are the most intensly sincere man ever known to me, hidden behind those masks of reluctance and unwillingness, which my eyes see past without trouble. But I don't mention this, because I understand you. My eyes understand you. More than you could ever believe. I found someone who mirrors me from the soul to the mind, someone who pushes his care aside for mine, someone who nourishes me and calms the trouble seas within me. A man who encourages me unknowingly, a man who taught me how to strive for what my heart desires, a man who instilled mental strength within me. I found someone who truly believes in me. I found a hero.
I sometimes sat, and wandered off into a world of what if's. But without heavy hesitation, quickly snapped back to reality, because what I didn't or couldn't have, hurt. And pain is something that never dies. But I heard you get over it, somehow.
Have you ever had something so profound happen to you that it changes your life in an instant?....I have. June 19th. For some unknown reasons, after initiation of conversation, somewhere deep inside myself, I felt inclined towards you. I, or my soul, immediately became infatuated with your mind and words. Gradually, that infatuation gracfully converted to fondness, then to intense care, to passion, after resting at Love. But the Love grew, day and night and night and day..without reason, but I didn't need reason, at that moment, my heart convinced my otherwise pessimistic mind that, you were all I needed.
You are the most intensly sincere man ever known to me, hidden behind those masks of reluctance and unwillingness, which my eyes see past without trouble. But I don't mention this, because I understand you. My eyes understand you. More than you could ever believe. I found someone who mirrors me from the soul to the mind, someone who pushes his care aside for mine, someone who nourishes me and calms the trouble seas within me. A man who encourages me unknowingly, a man who taught me how to strive for what my heart desires, a man who instilled mental strength within me. I found someone who truly believes in me. I found a hero.
El Poetisa.
